So , walking up to school this morning, no hangover , alert, not feeling seedy. A bit weird actually, did everything I was suppose to do this morning , lunches, dressed, breakfast. All without a hangover and not in slow mo. I’m kinda loving it, I mean I’m not saying I haven’t thought about wine, coz I have a lot, an awful lot.
i woke up, after a good nights sleep, didn’t wake up during the night, not once. Normally I’d be getting up skulling juice from the bottle in the middle of the night, taking a big glass back to bed, coz of the dries.
Took my daughter to swimming lessons, normally I’d be so tired and drained sitting there, hoping for the lesson to be over because I felt like utter shit. Not today , actually watched her, enjoyed watching her. Makes me sad to think how checked out I must have been, just going through the motions and not even enjoying being a mum. Just being a shit mum.
Of course I cooked my kids dinner, went on school trips , helped out in the classroom, swimming lessons, dance lessons. Worked, play dates, homework all that stuff. But I had totally emotionally checked out, not enjoying these moments, either hungover or waiting till 430 wine o’clock. Where I could emotionally check out again.
After school my middle son has swimming lessons at 4, usually I would promise myself I wasn’t going to drink tonite. But of course I’d swing by the alcohol shop straight after, picking up a bottle of wine. I’d usually have a half drunk one in the fridge anyway, so a bottle and a half would do me fine tonite.
The damage I have done to my poor body over the years. Treating it like absolute shit.
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